What Bugs Me

One time in an interview I was asked, "What bugs you?" The question took me completely off guard at the time. Now, after having been in the workplace, I have my answer: dishonesty. There are some things they don't teach you in college. One of those things is how dishonest the business world is. It is so disheartening and frustrating to me. I just don't know how to handle it. I can't tolerate it. One of my co-workers has repeatedly told me that if our boss does something then we have to accept it as the standard- as being honest and right. Umm, no. Truth is truth. You can't change it. If something someone does goes against what I believe is honest and true, I shouldn't have to change my beliefs. And that is that.

Pray for me to get a better job. Please, please, please.

Wish Me Luck...

I started applying for jobs in Arizona tonight. May as well, right? It's kind of difficult as I live in Utah, though. But, if that's where I'm supposed to be I trust that Heavenly Father will somehow make it happen. Maybe by some miracle someone will want to do a phone interview with me.

Arizona has been appealing to me for several years. Mostly because of the warm weather and mild winters. I am not a fan of snow and cold at all. And now I have family there. And, said family has a pool at their house. Perfect!

Something in my life has GOT to change. I am going crazy/having a really hard time here. I wish I could go into things about my job on here, but I probably shouldn't. It's just really, really hard. I came home crying tonight. There are several issues. It's something you can't quite understand unless you are living it. I can't quit...I don't have any other employment options right now.

I am applying for jobs in Utah as well. If I found a job here that I loved, I'd be willing to stay. I don't know... it's just hard because I'm really not sure about things in my life right now. I'm praying, reading my scriptures, applying for jobs... but for some reason things just aren't falling into place yet. I've never felt this lost in my life. Please pray for me. I just don't know what to do. I just want to be where I'm supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to be doing and being happy.

Not the Only One!

[Slow day at work = blogging time! :)]

Yesterday we had a business to business expo for work. I was sitting at our Chamber table with name tags for those who wanted to make one. A girl in her twenties comes up and starts writing her name. She writes C-A-R-R-I-E... I was thinking, "Oh hey, that's cool. We have the same name." Then she starts writing C-O-X. That's when I was like, "Oh my gosh! We have the exact same name!" It was awesome! It totally made my day! Such a silly thing, I know. And it's not like my name is that uncommon. But, that's never happened to me before. It made me smile. :)

Praying For Jen

Every now and again you hear a story in the news that really tugs on your heart and helps remind you to put things in perspective and focus on what matters most. It seems like I've been having a lot of that lately in the past few months.

Well, on Monday, one of these stories hit pretty close to home. Mom, Dad, Christi and I were on our way home from a trip to Arizona when we learned that there was a tragic accident involving my brother's sister-in-law. I won't go into detail about what happened, you can read a bit about that here. It's just so sad. This family's life was forever changed in an instant. They'll never be the same.

So many people have been praying for her and her family. It's amazing that she is still alive. Miracles really do happen. If she survives, they have a long road of recovery ahead of them. She'll probably never be the same again. Buffy's brother came out with a statement that said "her fate is in God's hands." It's true.

As I was at the gym the other night, I couldn't help but be grateful that I can run, walk, see and hear. Some people don't have that priviledge. Jen might not have that priviledge again. Life can change so quickly. My heart hurts for their family.

Come What May and Love It

I found out today that I didn't get the job I thought I wanted. I'm doing pretty well. I mean, no one likes the feeling of being rejected. But, what can you do? I'm trying not to take it personally. I do feel like it is an honor to even be interviewed to work for the Church.

I'm thankful for all the prayers. I guess it just wasn't Heavenly Father's will. Actually, I have to admit, coming out of the interview I wasn't as excited about the position as I was at first. The work environment would have been amazing, and that was a big thing for me. But, when I thought about the fact that I wouldn't be doing very much PR and writing (obviously I love writing), I got a little sad. Also, after my interview I had lunch at the CougarEat. I ended up sitting near two freshman girls and heard their conversation. Just being there made me feel like I was in college again and I didn't want that. I very much like to feel like I'm progressing in my life.

So, I'm ok. But, I am left wondering, "if that's not what I'm supposed to do, then what AM I supposed to do?" I guess something better will come along. I want to find one job I love and stay there for a very long time. Hopping jobs doesn't look very good on the resume.

I feel like this is a very refining time of my life. I came across this thought tonight which fits perfectly. I had heard it before and love it!

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

Come what may and love it.

Manti Temple Trip

I'm just on a roll here with blogging, aren't I?!

Back in June I went to Manti with my ward. We attended the pageant on a Friday night and attended the temple the next morning. Some of us girls slept in a barn at our bishop 's cousins' property that night.

On our way to Manti the whole ward (practically) stopped at a pizza place in Ephraim. Ephraim is a small town, I tell ya!

The pageant was good. I had never seen it before. My favorite thing about it was that they actually had someone at the top of the temple who was "angel moroni." It was really neat.

On our way out of town, a few of us stopped at Fred's (apparently it's the hot place in town) for lunch. It was there that I received a text from Traci that made me suspicious. I called my mom and asked her if Grandma had passed away. She confirmed it. Traci didn't know I didn't know. Mom wasn't going to tell me until I got home because she didn't want to ruin my trip. I think it is one of those things that I will never forget. I will never forget where I was when I found out Grandma passed away.

Anyway, the pageant was good. I've probably talked about it on here before, but my ward is visiting every temple in Utah this year. Next up is Monticello!

Manti Tabernacle.

Bring on the Heat!

Here's the weather forecast (from weather.com) for Phoenix for the days we'll be there. It's going to be nice and TOASTY! I love the heat. I can't say I've experienced 110 degree plus temps very much in my life, so we'll see how it feels. But, I'd MUCH rather be hot than cold! That's for sure!