Moving Forward

My interview yesterday went ok. Although I feel like it went ok, I left the interview with a different feeling than I had going into it. I left feeling like I am not going to get the job and I need to move forward with my plans to move to Arizona in just a couple of weeks. So, that's what I'm doing. The job and housing hunt continues.

Although this is something I am excited for and very much want to do, it is a huge trial of faith. I was reading in 1 Nephi recently and realized how applicable what I was reading is to my life. 1 Nephi 2:1-3 states,

2 And it came to pass that the Lord commanded my father, even in a dream, that he should take his family and depart into the wilderness.

3 And it came to pass that he was obedient unto the word of the Lord, wherefore he did as the Lord commanded him.

4 And it came to pass that he departed into the wilderness. And he left his house, and the land of his inheritance, and his gold, and his silver, and his precious things, and took nothing with him, save it were his family, and provisions, and tents, and departed into the wilderness.

I am departing "into the wilderness" so to speak. I am leaving my house and most likely a lot of my belongings (I'm only taking what I can fit in my car) and traveling into the wilderness. I am going to do my best to be obedient to the promptings I've received.

Boy is it scary. I talked to my Mom about it this morning and cried and cried. I know it is what I'm supposed to do, but I am scared. I know Heavenly Father will take care of me, but sometimes it's hard to fully trust Him when so much is unknown. I keep thinking of a quote by Martin Luther King Jr.: "Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase." I've got to take the first step.

I keep wrestling between the logical and the spiritual side of all of this. Logically, it makes no sense to move down there without a job. The other day I called the LDS Employment Resource Center in Mesa to see if there are some employment websites that I don't know about that they do. I explained that I am moving down there at the end of the month. The sister said, "So, you are moving down here without a job?" Yes, yes I am. I know it's crazy.

Through all of this, I am so thankful for the support I have from family and friends. There are so many people who are so supportive of this decision I have made. That helps me so much. It'll be interesting to see how the coming months play out. I can only imagine that great happiness awaits me as I move forward with my life in Arizona.